I must be the worst writer out there – I left this poor blog in the dust while I was out living my life. By that I mean that somehow, in my running around, I never set aside time to write for the blog I was so excited to start. It baffles me that I wrote more consistently while I was a full-time college student working on the side than when I was simply working. This post will serve as a life update of sorts. I say this as I am writing in a coffee shop in Ohio, jobless and on my way to possibly (and hopefully) moving to the East Coast – okay, “life update” may be an understatement.
About a month ago I made the decision to pack up my car and move out of San Francisco. I absolutely adored my time there. I established myself well and made wonderful friends. I had five (plus a few) awesome roommates and a relatively full schedule. I left for numerous reasons but mainly because my job had died down to nothing – not a great thing when you are a new grad trying to actually *do* something with your degree. A lot happened that contributed to this decision, but just know this – I made the choice to chase down my dreams regardless of what my current life situation looked like.
SF was many things to me – my first home away from home, the place that taught me new things about myself, that tested my boundaries and comfort zone. Most of all, SF will always be the city that proved to me I am capable of great things. I found my true self there and learned that I can do more than I originally thought possible; I can choose myself and chase the greatest desires of my heart despite what my fears tell me. We all deserve this – the chance to choose ourselves and explore our dreams and desires.
To be honest, I didn’t know what my specific dreams and desires were. I wanted a fulfilling job, good friends and to live confidently in who I was made to be. What I didn’t know was what job I wanted to do, what kind of friends I needed to surround myself with and I only knew a little about myself/who I wanted to be.
Let me start by saying San Francisco is a totally different world. I lived with chill, carefree surfers, babysat for someone who worked for Google and his wife who is a CFO at her company, and made friends with everyone in between. I loved the diversity there and the culture – because there is no single culture. Everything mixes quite beautifully and it was so easy to weave in and out of each group I associated myself with. I will forever speak of my time there as adventurous and exciting; a sweet time of self-realization and growth. I realized I was previously limiting myself. Why? Who knows. All that matters now is how I choose to keep going – but mostly, to keep going.
So here I am, chilling in Cleveland in an effort to regroup and refresh. With all that happened and all that I want to do next, I am choosing to continue looking forward. No regrets, no second guessing myself. I have learned so much in my life already and I am hoping to enjoy this time being jobless with no plan in sight (very contrary to my nature) and simply living out this crazy journey. My faith in God is a huge part of my life because He is my number one supporter and provider; He is my place of comfort and refuge. If He isn’t a part of your life, find yourself a great friend or two to encourage you to choose yourself. Learn to love and appreciate yourself for who you are and who you want to be. Make change in your life if you are feeling the urge. Everyone has access to an endless supply of courage. Everyone is capable of accomplishing great things.
I am really going to try to write more. I will start writing about traveling and the random trips I’ve taken solo and with friends. I want to thank every person who reads my posts for taking time out of your day to do so. I appreciate it more than you know.
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